Five years ago today, I was crying. I cried for all the things I knew I would never have in my life: frilly dresses and hair bows, dollhouses, first pedicures, secrets about cute boys in school, lunches at Olive Garden, helping someone pick out a dress for prom. I'm embarrassed now to say that I was crying five years ago on December 14th because for all the things I didn't have, here's what I did have:
He was beautiful and perfect and I wasn't as grateful as I should have been for him because I had been wanting something else so very badly. What I got wasn't expected, but it didn't take me long to fall in love with this little blue-eyed boy.
Another reason I'm so grateful I had a boy on December 14, 2007 is because if I'd had a girl, I would have been done. So without William, there would be no Luke. And, oh, how the world would be less beautiful without that little sweetheart!
Although I still get wistful thinking about all the things I'll miss not having a daughter, I am blessed so much more than I could have ever imagined being. They are my whole world.